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What the title says, from Catherine Disher's ebay thing. It will come in handy the week or two of winter when I don't feel like turning up the heater. The jackets, I'd never wear since I rarely wear a jacket in the winter. The bathrobe I feel like I'd use at least some.

I just finished episode 4 of my season 4. I don't have a name for it yet and it needs to marinate a few days before I go back and edit and post. The police case in episode 4 is based on something I saw on one of my true crime shows. About 25% of it really happened but, of course, I had to make it convoluted for the story so that it would be a challenge for Nick and Tracy.

I also managed a big chunk of the Last Chapter. I have about a chapter and half to go. YAY! Apparently, I was just burned out on it but I think I'm back in the groove.

I've started researching a case for episode 5 but I'm not sure I want to go there yet. Maybe, instead, something related to something I briefly set up in episode 4. I'll see how I feel once I start writing episode 5.

After episode 5, it will turn a little dark. Probably. I haven't 100% decided yet but I think, yes, we're going to the dark side for a few episodes.

I found some of Ger's Stratford Festival plays on amazon (Broadway HD subscription channel). I'm watching Antony and Cleopatra right now. It's nice to see him in something he obviously loves to do. Like usual when I watch Shakespeare, the first 15 minutes, I can't understand what the hell they're talking about. Then, gradually, I start getting into the weird rhythm and often repetitiveness of the speech and finally start understanding. I really, really don't understand how they can remember their lines.

I watched "The Family" with Nigel Bennett and I was right, not for me but Nigel was good. And suitably creepy. I watched all his episodes of the Border and am now watching his episodes from Psy Factor (eye-roll, really Dan Akroyd? REALLY, pretending it's real?). I'm really enjoying Matt Frewer. He's, I think, unintentionally hilarious to me. I keep expecting him to glitch like Max Headroom or start running around like the Trash Can Man. The facial expressions he gets sometimes. I think next I'm going to rewatch Lexx and see how I feel about it now, 20 years after I watched it the first time.

No real progress on the last FK fic in the series. I don't know what the blockage is. So I started something new. Kinda a season 4 if Last Knight never happened. And it doesn't go too far off the rails.

I'm finally making some progress on Last Chapter. FINALLY. So maybe I will finish before Christmas break so I can work on something else during my time off. Maybe. I still have to go back and edit and add and change after I finish.

I'm on chapter 10 and I think there will be 12 or 13 chapters. My chapters tend to go along with my attention span (which is about 1500 to 2000 words each) so not much more to go. I've enjoyed writing the series. I had no idea where it would go when I started it. But now, I'm ready to focus on other parts of the show. And other shows. A little. I'm still obsessed with Forever Knight. Or re-obsessed?

I would still like to try Black Harbour but I can't find it anywhere. From the description, it doesn't sound like my kind of show but still... I do wonder why they gatekeep certain shows so hard. Was it not very popular? Too popular? Was there music that they have to get the rights to again?

I have Nigel's latest movie, The Family, in my Amazon queue. It looks creepy but, again, not my kind of movie but Nigel... so...

I posted it here:
https://archiveofourown.org/works/43349514

Apparently, the FK fic-which-will-not-be-named does not want to be written right now. So I'm going to take the pressure off myself and just write whatever comes to mind. Mostly shorter things since I don't want to plot and take notes etc etc. Maybe I'll do some challenges from various DW groups. The one I did do was fun and very spontaneous.

I've found myself thinking about Methos (from Highlander) a lot lately. I always did prefer the morally ambiguous characters better than the "hero" main character. Methos, Spike, Lacroix, Eric (from True Blood), Josef (from Moonlight), Henry (from Blood Ties) etc. I find them far more complex and interesting than the main character who always tries to do right. However, I do recognize that without the "good guy" main character, the morally ambiguous characters have nothing to contrast against.

Off to watch Father's Day FK ep to try and write a post-ep fic.

I seem to want to write everything except what I should be writing. I strayed into the Buffyverse.

https://archiveofourown.org/works/43276809

I did write twelve pages on the story I'm calling "Last Chapter" in my FK series so there has been some progress.

This one came while I was looking up something completely unrelated to Forever Knight.

Sooo, what if Divia came back but she was not looking for immediate revenge? What if she played the remorseful daughter for a while? How would she fit into Lacroix's life? Into Nick's? Into the community? What would she do after studying the situation for a bit? Would her actions push Nick and Lacroix closer together or farther apart? She's had nearly 2000 years to learn patience and to curb her impulsive nature. She's had all that time to think of a fitting punishment but had no way of knowing the current status of things in the world. Hmm.

I've made some progress on the last story in the series but it's not coming easy. I don't know why. Most of the stories seemed to write themselves with very little effort (except Changes). Maybe I'm bored with it? Maybe I don't want it to end? Maybe I resent Janette for reappearing? But I couldn't end the series without her popping up. I needed the closure and so does Nick, I think. (insert eye roll here)

I'll keep plugging away.

I was looking at my calendar and realized that Thanksgiving is next week. It really means nothing to me except I get a few days off work.

As I was drifting off last night, I had a thought that made me giggle. A Forever Knight/Murdoch Mysteries crossover with Nick and Lacroix meeting their doppelgangers in Chief Constable Giles (Lacroix) and Arthur Conan Doyle (Nick who met Doyle in England in 1883). Both characters were in the show in 2013 (otherwise, no overlap) so it would be possible that they were both in town at the same time. Of course, it would be "vampire murders" that Murdoch was investigating and Crabtree would be the first to put forth the theory of a 'vampire'. An idea I absolutely do not need in my head, I have enough unfinished things.

I told myself that, if I can keep it short and finish two other stories, I can write it. Maybe the urge will pass by the time that happens.

I realized Slings and Arrows is on Amazon for streaming (on Acorn that I have through Amazon). Another one to watch again but I don't want to watch it while working so it will be slower since I actually want to watch it and not just listen.

I found Due South on Youtube (in HD YAY). I used to have the DVD's but I got rid of them years ago assuming it would be on streaming with everything else. But, nope. I was looking for something else on youtube and found Due South so I am watching them again.

Due South is like the opposite of Forever Knight. It is wholesome and sweet. However, the character of Fraser is not that simple. He has hidden inner pain. A weird childhood. And the relationship with his cop partner is sometimes interesting and even more so when the partner changes in a later season. It's not a show that inspires me to write fanfiction but I do enjoy it.

Paul Gross is such a good actor. He played the opposite of Fraser in Slings and Arrows and I wish I could see him in more.

But, I feel like I'm cheating on my first love by watching it. LOL Especially since I am in the middle of several stories. Maybe some goodness and light will make me run back to the darkness (which I prefer) once I tire of the wholesome Due South.

I find myself kind of stuck on the latest installment of my FK series. I think it's because I've taken them so far outside of the show that the episodes no longer inspire me for that fic. Probably I will finish the latest soon, even if I'm not completely happy with it, and then take a break from writing in that universe. However, it ends on a cliffhanger so there will be at least one more.

For this one, I wrote the opposite of the usual way. I knew exactly how I wanted it to end and then wrote the beginning to get them there. I'm not sure it's working well. Ah well, that's what editing is for.

To become more inspired, I've been going back to the show and have started writing the connect the dots of the flashbacks. It's my way of making it make sense. The evolution of the Nick & Lacroix relationship. By that I mean, the different attitudes and interplay between the characters from flashback to flashback are inconsistent. I know it's because the flashbacks were written by different writers at different times to suit the main theme of the episode. But I always wondered, 'what happened between flashback A and flashback B to make them act that way.' So, I'm writing it.

I've also challenged myself to write around 800-word or fewer 'stories', from Lacroix's POV since, although he likes to hear the sound of his own voice, I get the feeling that he keeps so much contained and not talked about. I find it a challenge since the guys often get wordy and want to talk talk talk talk. I'm doing this for episodes that made me say 'AND WE'RE NEVER GOING TO TALK ABOUT IT AGAIN? REALLY?' Again, I know why in reality but, damn, so mean of them to have the characters say or do something significant, and then it is never brought up again. At least I think they are significant but I'm usually looking at Lacroix and Nick's relationship.

Someone on the Forever Knight Fan Group on Facebook asked "what are your favorite episodes in each season?" Mine are the Lacroix-heavy episodes, especially once he had the character down. So the flashbacks from season 1, a lot from seasons 2 and 3. Nigel Bennett was sublime in his acting. His face and eyes and voice often told more of the story than the script. It's not that I find his evil attractive, it's that I find his and Nick's relationship fascinating. Nick acted like a whiney, petulant, child at times, very entitled seeming and I always wondered if that was an actor choice or if it was in the script. Either way, I have to wonder why Lacroix didn't just stake him and go on with life.

Although there is a sexual element in my fanfic, to me, it was barely there in the show. It WAS there, hinted at, but barely. A few moments here and there where I looked askance and wondered if that was an actor choice or if it was written that way.

And then there is Janette. She was criminally underused. But, the show was about Nick's quest to regain his humanity, not explore the world of complex vampire relationships as they moved time. Although, I would watch that for sure. As long as it wasn't with teenagers.